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@ /WHOIS -

netnames: kara, wami, wamz, kuwami, wamster, ACiD
asl: 19/f/philippines
music: jrock, kpop/hiphop, rock
hobbies: nihongo, webdesign, comp. programming, bishounen, yaoi, visual arts, music
email: acid@kuwami.net
aim: iwanthooniezass
sites: purachina, spandex n braids, wami gateway, kuwami.net

bishounen kang sunghoon, jang woohyuk, lim danny, shin hyesung, camui gackt, ryutaro, sugizo, toshiya, tasuki, kurama, duo, dilandau, kaworu, kenshin... wolfwoood -cough- nevermind.
kpop gasoo h.o.t, sechskies, 1tym, shinhwa, eve, ftts, finkl
jrock bands gackt, luna sea, laruku, dir en grey, pierrot, due'le quartz, plastic tree, michiru project, eliphas levi, aliene ma'riage
anime gundam wing, tenkuu no escaflowne, kare-kano, fushigi yuugi, evangelion, zetsu ai, kaze to ki no uta... trigun
others interests ralph XD, counterstrike, ak-47, yaoi, black clothes, my cellphone, british accents, coffee, smoking, leather pants, java/computer programming, foreign languages



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@ OLD ENTRIES -

hoonieyah~!
|Nov24,00
jaewon.elite
|Dec20,00
akishou i
|Dec30,00
akishou ii
|Jan16,01
hyori one
|Feb1,01
hyori two
|Feb12,01
1 sexy danny
|Mar27,01
2 sexy danny
|Apr8,01



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@ BLOG LINKS -

[* = people i love XD]
ralph XD**
ami-chan*
jen*
selene*
tin
noshadow
linna*
docmegumi*
khara-monki
gaile*
gina dongsaeng*
emyrs
lez*
benj*
allie-chan*
jo-chan
shabby
eunha*
mae-chan*
nahmoolie*
jekkigirl*
kero-chan*
jen
esca*
chibi*
lizu*
gayo soo ho shin*
mousse*
cdz*
kenken*
charm*
closetboy
josh
dav

< i luv asians >




WAMI
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    $ I LOVE PERL PROGRAMMING!!! - link
     ## Tuesday, August 14, 2001

      for the lack of time and interest in making web pages, i shall be simply concentrating on maintaining my weblog. i will be moving my blog to kuwami.net soon, with a new design. ill also start using greymatter, or maybe create my own weblog program [as an experiment in perl programming] when i have the time. im very busy right now... although my priorities may seem weird. (1, master counterstrike, 2, do my school work, 3, continue loving ralph, 4, lose weight eheheh)

      but anyway... please look forward to the new design. i have to admit ihave been greatly influenced by alie and gailes style, although i never really intend to copy style, but to exercise my creativity in webdesign. i need ideas. i need inspiration XD well, a lot of those come from bishie piccies... LOL

      contents of my weblog will be different as well. Less spamming and more on reflection and my philosophies. i can say that i have been inspired by my philo courses :)

      see yah'll soon!

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    $ ^_^ - link
     ## Tuesday, July 31, 2001

      sorry for disappearing again. im so busy with school rah @_@ HEYYY i got good news though.. I HAVE A FULLY FUNCTIONAL KEYBOARD NOW!! whahahah you guys will probably wont here from me till next week cos im swamped with schoolwork. i've been playing counter strike 24/7 [and im not kidding. ok so most probably 8/7 (8 hours a day, seven days a week) whehehehe -.-"]

      laterz.

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    $ my school newspaper XD - link
     ## Monday, July 23, 2001

      aaah, ive kinda cooled down and let off steam. and i feel much better with all the rage and anger gone. well, almost gone. im not that mad at ralphs mom anymore. hah, i know my mom can be bitchy too. moms are like that. ill probably be like that too when i become a mom. lez, be happy for mee again cos im happy again. i have my dugong on my lap and im hugging it. i still feel great cos i saw ralph last saturday haha i miss him less. but thats still missing him a LOT. you cannot believe how much i just wanted to kiss him and hold him when we saw each other.

      anyway, i got a copy of my school newspaper today, and im featured in it, mainly because of my fashion style. i dont dress like the usual filipina girl does. its a knee length skirt of shorter, a baby tee, or something girly, with my high socks and tall boots. very ko-girl. sometimes i wear my loose socks and my atsuzoko. and my hair is japanese style -- very straight and very layered [although i have to have it trimmed soon]. and im always wearing gothic accessories like necklaces [especially the silver ankh which ralph gave me for my birthday] and my bracelets. its all very jrock influenced hehe

      they interviewed me about why i dress differently, and i said i just wore stuff whih doesnt make me conform to the rest. im a non conformist and i like it like that. you guys know the history ne.. THATS WHY IM COMING OUT RAH XD ehehhe heeeniway, i hope to have my pix scanned so i can show you guys XD XD

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    $ URRGHHHH XP i hate ralph's mom right now... - link
     ## Monday, July 23, 2001

      ,,l,, dear ralph's mom, how DARE you call my house and continue to threaten me about filing your stupid temporary fucking restraining order, thinking that YOU CAN SCARE ME..// how dare you ACCUSE ME of being a calculating person who'd use ralph's friends to help us communicate// I NEVER INTENDED TO DO THAT. I PROMISED TO KEEP MY PART OF THE BARGAIN. I STAY AWAY FROM RALPH AND YOU GIVE HIM HIS LIFE BACK, AND YOU CALL MY HOUSE WITH YOUR FALSE ACCUSATIONS. YOU CANT FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE, CAN YOU//

      well, IM SORRY, i never went AFTER your son in the first place. none of your stupid ass legal shit can work, since YOU HAVE NO EVIDENCE WHATSOEVER.i have a lawyer and YOUR CASE WILL SIMPLY BE DISMISSED AND IGNORED BY THE COURT SINCE ITS BASED ON NOTHING. i never had sex with your son. YOU CANT CHARGE CORRUPTION OF A MINOR. i never corrupted your son. and look at how youre killing him, taking away his whole life from him -- and you say hes forming his values right now but what do you think his values will be if you keep on doing this// hell be a completely stubborn boy and hell maybe even hold a grudge on you. YOU ARE SCARRING HIM.

      AND I LAUGH AT YOUR ATTEMPT TO HUMILIATE ME TO MY PARENTS AND IN MY SCHOOL. go fucking ahead and send your ''furnished copy'' of that temporary restraining order TO MY PARENTS AND TO ATENEO. I DONT GIVE A FUCK. you do not know me, and you do not know how loving your son has changed my life. and you do not understand how something like what we have can be so right. telling the world i love a minor has never been a problem to me. THERE NOTHING WRONG WITH ME. ITS THOSE WHO THINK WHAT IM DOING IS IMMORAL. you just cant accept anything thats uncommon. you are so old-fashioned.

      i have not done anything bad to your son. I NEVER DESTROYED YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR SON. it was already like that when i showed up. you think i cant fight back, eh..// well you're wrong. i can be a bitch like you. but i have been stupid and let myself be hurt by your BLUFFING. i should never have listened to you in the first place. and im sorry to say, that nothing you cant ever friggin do can stop me and ralph from loving each other. DONT BE JEALOUS cos he shows his love for me MORE than he shows his love from you. I NEVER INTENDED TO STEAL HIM FROM YOU. i simply aimed to make him happy, and to be part of his lives. to make myself happy. AND YOU FUCKED UP EVERYTHING AND MADE HIS LIFE MISERABLE JUST TO GET RID OF ME// JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT LIKE ME// JUST BECAUSE IM OLDER// JUST BECAUSE IM NOT CHINESE// you racist bitch.

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 10:03 a.m. **
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    $ results to my sextest... - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      Congrats! In your life, you'll have sex with

      10 people!

      And you'll first have sex at age 21,
      in your lover's bed.



      The info on your 10 future sex partner(s):
      2 of them will be female
      8 of them will be male
      And you will actually love 2 of them!
      Also, you think about sex considerably more than you do it.


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    $ i bought a new cd... - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      yeah yeah i know im slow, but i love linkin park XD ralph asked me when i told him bout me recent obsession why i liked linkin park, since it was a song for troubled people. i was just like ''well, you answered your own question.'' hehehehe im sorry baby. i didnt mean that you were making me miserable or something. i lava yoo and im going through all these cos of my love for yoo XD - muah- heeh, i miss being in your arms already, and its only been 4 hours...

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 01:17 a.m. **
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    $ bwahhaha - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      hmm... you wanna try me// XD tell me if im a good kisser or not... -cough cough-

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    $ i love yaoi XD - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      aah, aaron is sooooooooo nice XD waaiii, thanks for the comments and praises, aaron. mmmm i think ill be up the whole night writing the ficcie XD [its a hyukta entitled LETTING GO]

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 01:03 a.m. **
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    $ ooh yeah... - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      i forgot to say -- i FINALLY saw charp today. heh he's cute XD XD -glomps charles tan, esta, CHARP XD-

      heeheee im still all happy cos i saw ralphhh... -sigh- ill go write my ficcie now XD

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 01:02 a.m. **
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    $ i kicked gerret's ass XD XD - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      well.. in counter strike. hehehe

      i just got home from an eyeball thingie. [with my net/anime/jrock friends]

      im soooooooooo happy too XD XD XD cos after eating at tequila joe's, we decided to play counterstrike in the nearest pc bbang, and that would be area 51 in pearl drive.

      so we went there but decided to go to annapolis instead to play cos it was cheaper. but i had a FEELING that i had to go inside, and when i did, this doode who timed the players was outside talking to my friend, cdz. then he saw me and asked if i was the one who was looking for ralph before. i said yes and asked if he was there, becoming really anxious. and he WAS there...

      so i FINALLY got to touch and hug and kiss my baby... XD i miss him terribly and i was already going crazy without seeing him for so long.. [ever since we ''broke up'']

      but i had to go after fifteen minutes cos i was with my friends, so fter 10 minutes of just embracing each other and kissing, i had leave him to play counterstrike. ;c

      but feeling very inspired, my friends and i went to netvanna to play ourown game, and i kicked gerrets ass XD. our scores were actually the same but i beat him cos i was the top player for terrorists hehe.

      yesterday gerret and i played as well. and he had a better score than me. ah but who cares. i gotta be the best XD XD XD and i will be -- someday. but i gotta hurry up cos people are already getting boring playing cs XP

      aaah i miss my dugong -- I LOVE YOU RALPH XD

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 12:53 a.m. **
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    $ so near yet so far ... 0.o - link
     ## Sunday, July 22, 2001

      uhm... yeah. i was in the mall yesterday... and i was sooooooo pissed off cos i was walking towards the cd store, and i saw this very very familiar boy in his uniform sitting in a table with his family. it was my baby XD.. and you know when they say that your heart skips a beat when you see the love of your life, my heartbeat stopped. i could feel it become irregular for 3 seconds at least, and my knees became weak i had to walk slower, my eyes fixed on him as he talked to his parents. i couldn't exactly go there and say hi, when his parents aboslutely hate me and was really about to press charges... i didn't exactly know what to do because i didn't want to cause him any more trouble. it was such a big concidence that 1, he was there, 2, i was there and 3, that i saw him in that big ass mall.

      call me a stalker or something, bu i stayed there for ten minutes, figuring out what to do, just staring at him, feeling all excited, depressed, frustrated, and happy all at once.. i called up people, messaged people and they all said to STAY AWAY AND DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID.... -.-;; they really know better. but my bestfriend jokingly told me to 1, go there and give him a nice long french kiss... or 2, go to his mom, kiss her on the cheek and say, ''hey auntie... remember me//'' whahaha my best friend cracks me up.

      but i left and had to let make sure ralph saw me, so i walked really close to the table, while i was talking to my dad since i was supposed to meet him somewhere. but i didnt have the nerve to look if he did see me.

      but he did. and he called me up this morning, telling me it wa SO WEIRD that just after he was thinking ''i wonder if kara was here right now'', i showed up, right in front of him.

      its a sign.. dont you think// why the hell did i have to see him and miss him even more. i have to wait for my baby. he will come back for me. my friend gerret says, its a sign thats actually negative. he was withhis family, and i was alone, and i couldnt be with him ;c. YOU SUCK GERRET XP

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 1:42 a.m. **
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    $ URK 0.o;; - link
     ## Wednesday, July 18, 2001

      i didnt know there was a bug in my design XD ack... cos i always had my font size ''smaller''. so the images werent align and all. but its fixed now.... cept i havent exactly looked at the site with NETSCAPE. [netscape suxx XP] i wont even bother.

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    $ my school library has INTERESTING shit XD - link
     ## Wednesday, July 18, 2001

      i had an hour break in between my classes today so i decided to go to the library [first tym this schoolyear] and check out my fave sections -- computer books and stuff on homosexuality. the book i borrowed is VERY juicy.. and i think ill read it the whole night XD

      its called ''sex between men'' wehehehehe.

      aah, i think ill have fun quoting some stuff...hmmm lessee.. this ones interesting --

      ''i first began this book under a hypothesis - that sex is the sine qua non of homosexuality -- that now i see is faulty. For every gay man for whom sex is the highest value in his life, there is another for whom love reigns supreme.... I have been forced, therefore, to revice my position and argue that sex isn't the bedrock of gay life. It may just be a fluke of history that gay men, for a time, fucked their brains out.'' [sadownick]

      heh. cute XD

    ** ACiD was killed with a headshot from ak47 at 09:19 p.m. **
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    $ i love my friends XD - link
     ## Wednesday, July 18, 2001

      [from benj]

      wamiiiiiiiii! weeeeeeebeeeeeeee!

      yeh, let it all out, squeeze that AK dryyyyyyyyyy! XD

      let's play sometime! ;)

      even though that sounds real naughty, benj, ill accept your invitation XD -WAMI WANTS TO PLAY WITH BENJ TOOOOO XD- aarrghhh i miss my net friends.. XD and even when i do have my net back i never catch anyone online. wahahah im just too lazy to reply mails. i owe a lot of people emails... gomen ne -.-;;

      anyway, before i played counterstrike this afternoon, i was hanging out in starbucks with my friends and i dont quite remember but we were all daring each other to do something crazy. and i forgot who, but sum1 quipped, daring us[me and this other girl] to kiss each other. i could really do something like that in public since i AM sort of bisexual so the other girl was the one who was backing out... wehehehhe

      well, to cut the story short, we french kissed in front of everybody in starbux... XD XD XD no biggie. except that there was actually a lesbian couple in the other table and they were looking, EVERYONE was watching us cos we were being so loud. -.-;; and i wasnt exactly embarrassed afterwards. it was kinda fun. and i can say that i enjoyed XD haha.. i know im crazy...

      oops.. 0.o;; ralph, if youre reading this, i hope you dont get mad or jealous -.-;; lol. you know how bad i am XD

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    $ acid -- whutttttttt - link
     ## Tuesday, July 17, 2001

      just to explain, ACiD is the name i use in counterstrike. im still addicted, yeah. i like killing people.

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    $ and it gets harder... - link
     ## Tuesday, July 17, 2001

      I wish that it could be just like before
      I know I could've given you so much more
      Even though you know
      I'd given you all my love
      I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
      Each and every day I reminisce
      'Coz baby it's you
      That I'm always dreaming of...
      Letting love go is never easy
      But I love you so
      That's why I set you free
      And I know someday
      Somehow I'll find a way
      To leave it all behind me
      Guess it wasn't meant to be
      But baby
      So before I let you go
      I want to say.......it
      I love you

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    $ now, if any1 could romanize hoonie's album for me -hint hint- - link
     ## Tuesday, July 17, 2001

      Akma 27 tell me how you beeeeeeen
      IWantHooniezASS:badd
      IWantHooniezASS:still hurt
      IWantHooniezASS:hehe
      Akma 27:awww *glomp*
      IWantHooniezASS:hooniiieeee-- -glomps lez- heheh i love him
      IWantHooniezASS:he be my ralph for now, theyre both tall and thin
      Akma 27:LOL
      IWantHooniezASS:but hoonies sekushii, pretty, he can sing, he has a nice butt, and hes gay XD
      Akma 27:LOL
      Akma 27:u really belive he's gay?
      IWantHooniezASS:yuppppppp
      Akma 27:LOL
      IWantHooniezASS:-.-;;;;
      IWantHooniezASS:whats so funny
      IWantHooniezASS:im just disappointed n scared why jiwon didnt help him in his album...
      Akma 27:Thas jus cute thas why Imlaughin
      IWantHooniezASS:ughhh-- you dont get it T.T
      IWantHooniezASS:what if they broke up or something =T
      IWantHooniezASS:hoonie must be feeling terrible
      IWantHooniezASS:thats why i feel miserable too when i listen to his songs. his voice seems so sad -.-
      Akma 27:Nah I doubt it. I mean Jiwon had his own album to do
      Akma 27:plus shows an mag shoots, intreviews...u know he can't like drop everything for THAT BOI
      IWantHooniezASS:yeah he can just drop his pants XD
      IWantHooniezASS:MWHAHAHAHAHAH
      Akma 27:LOL *falls on floor*

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    $ what's his name.. 0.o;; click b's kangta.... - link
     ## Tuesday, July 17, 2001

      hehehheheh -hides- i know some of you hate it when i call that click b doode taya 0.o;; BUT I SWEAR it's scary how they both look alike. and im kinda disappointed that taya has too many look-a-likes, i mean, cos hes soooo beautiful it just seems not right that someone looks like him... let's not forget that ex-koyote guy. and that japanese actress... yeah a girl XD ugh.. ill stop now XD weheheh

      im talking to lez right now XD OH MAII GOD she buy THAT BOI'S album... -muah- i luv yoooooooo. i hope you dont mind me broadcasting to the whole web community XD but it's making me soooo happy haha. i remember nahmoolie's blog about telling off people [esp. kangta's fans] who were buying hoonies album cos they thought he wrote hoonie a song... -.-;; well, taya's number one fan is buying my hoonie's cd cos she likes it XD and she doesnt loathe him as much XD XD and she'll write me a ficcie with hooooniiie. how could things get any better XD --stops-- maybe if i had my baby back and never had to let him go anymore.

      -CONTINUES W/ BOUNCING- seems like i shouldnt be singing this song anymore... am i really being pathetic already// hehe. bear with me.

      'Coz I'm missing you so bad
      Now that you're not by my side
      I guess you could say it's me
      Who's hurting so bad after all this time

      After all that we've been through
      Baby aren't you hurtin' too
      Now that I've lost the power to pretend
      I guess you could see right through me

      This yearnin' I can't explain
      Feeling I just cannot contain
      I know someday I'll get over you
      It just takes time and some getting used to
      Each day I'm feeling blue
      Every road leads me back to you

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    $ aah, jang woohyuk: can we say... SEHEKUSHIII ??!? - link
     ## Tuesday, July 17, 2001

      Mmmmm... I miss H.O.T -- but since i just let go of my real life bishie, i'll definitely be back to my korean and japanese bishies while i flood out my thoughts about ralph with yummy yaoi-filled ones.

      oh yeah -- you'd probably be blind if you didn't notice the new layout -- i mean, this blog has been dead for months, and it's been revived. with a 'tired and jaded' theme. im sick of life right now. i guess too many shit happened all at once. there are only a couple of things that's clear to me now. I MISS RALPH, DANNY [1TYM] IS DROP DEAD GORGOEUS, AND I STILL LOVE HOONIE TO ITTY-BITTY PIECES. oh, of course hyuk too. if i didnt then why the hell would i launch this layout XD

      i dont know if my web design skills are just rusty right now or if i was never good at all. i cant even figure out if this layout sucks or not... 0.o;; but don't go flamming me if it suxx cos im already fucking down and fucking scarred, and you would really make me even more miserable [for the lamers, i hope you catch the bait -- stupid flames can sometimes cheer me up. hehehe]

      but anyway, im muchos happii cos gerret lim, my friend is visiting from canada and he'll be here for a month. can't wait to see him this wednesday XD wahaha im gonna beat his ass in counter strike XD

      now, if i should inform ralph that im going to play counterstrike near his area or not, i do not know. i miss him terribly but i dont know if i should continue meeting up with him. yes i love him but i know itll hurt more if i go see him every now and then, rekindling the ''want and need'' i always feel when im with him ;C im missing my baby and im hurting... [note - if you can't understand this bit, forget about it]

      and so i continue to sing...

      I can still remember yesterday
      We were so in love in a special way
      And knowing that you loved me
      Made me feel oh so right
      But now I feel lost, don't know what to do
      Each and every day I think of you
      Holdin' back the tears,
      I'm trying with all my might

      Because you've gone and left me standing
      All alone
      And I know I've got to face tomorrow
      On my own....
      But baby....

      Before I let you go
      I want to say I love you
      I hope that you're listenin'
      'Coz it's true, baby
      You'll be forever in my heart
      And I know that no one else will do, yeah
      So before I let you go
      I want to say it.....I love you

      I wish that it could be just like before
      I know I could've given you so much more
      Even though you know
      I'd given you all my love
      I miss your smile, I miss your kiss
      Each and every day I reminisce
      'Coz baby it's you
      That I'm always dreaming of...

      Letting love go is never easy
      But I love you so
      That's why I set you free
      And I know someday
      Somehow I'll find a way
      To leave it all behind me
      Guess it wasn't meant to be
      But baby.........

      So before I let you go
      I want to say.......it
      I love you

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